New Pet

Please check out my new pet in the sidebar! I got this from Robyn (thanks). It's supposed to get to know me over time, and when you click on it, it will talk to you and tell you stuff; cool, eh? I LOVE animals, and found it exciting that I could have one in my blog, too! My own babies are acting weird lately; very clingy and needy. It's nice that they want to cuddle at night when it's cold, but I just had to bribe the 40 lb dog off my lap with a cookie, and then cuddle each cat for a few minutes.My male cat looks terrible. I know I'm going to have to have him put down one of these days, but he doesn't act like he feels bad, still purrs and eats soft food (and anything I'm eating). But, his weight has dropped from 20 lbs (yeah, I know) down to 5 in just over a year and a half. The vet just says he's getting older. He still plays and runs around a lot, though, so I'm putting it off as long as possible.

I have so much work to do- I didn't get any work done yesterday. Then I couldn't sleep- terrible panic attack. When I was finally able to sleep, I had several nightmares. I had one really nice dream, which I'll save for myself (get your minds out of the gutter, pervs)! I hate the nightmares- the doctor always told my mom I'd outgrow them...I'm still waiting. It seems like they come in groups; I'll have a lot of them for a while, then none for a while.

Strange, though, I had such a beautiful day yesterday. I had to go to town and make my house payment, so I took the dog with me. Most of the corn has been cut, so you could see for miles. The clouds were so close, it looked like you could reach up and touch them. I don't know how to explain it, but I feel really connected to the land here. I've been to other areas of the country, and some are really beautiful, but this place makes me feel complete. I love the large expanses of flat land, and the black soil.I've been to the mountains, and frankly, I feel suffocated. I've been to the desert, and while I found it lovely, I spent the whole time worried about snakes and scorpions. I did love the deep woods, and felt very safe among the trees and animals there. I know I'm rambling- nightmares scramble my thoughts, and it helps to refocus on what I love... I love my job, so I guess I should go prepare for it!

Have a great day!